Whatever it takes by Lifehouse


A strangled smile fell from your face
It kills me that I hurt you this way
The worst part is that I didn't even know
Now there's a million reasons for you to go
But if you can find a reason to stay

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know that I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
Believe that I can change
I'll keep us together whatever it takes

She said "If we're gonna make this work
You gotta let me inside even though it hurts
Don't hide the broken parts that I need to see"
She said "Like it or not it's the way it's gotta be
You gotta love yourself if you can ever love me"

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know that I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
And give me a break
I'll keep us together, I know you deserve much better

But remember the time I told you the way that I felt
That I'd be lost without you and never find myself
Let's hold onto each other above everything else
Start over, start over

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
and believe that I can change
I'll keep us together whatever it takes



On My Own by The Used



See all those people on the ground,
Wasting time...
I try to hold it all inside,
Just for tonight,
On top of the world,
I'm sitting here wishing,
The things I've become,
But something is missing,
Maybe I...
What do I know.

And now it seems that I have found,
Nothing at all,
I wanna hear your voice out loud,
Slow it down, slow it down,
Without it all,
I'm choking on nothing,
It's clear in my head,
that I'm screaming for something,
Knowing nothing is better than knowing it all.

On my own (4x)
(On my own, YAH!!)(2x)

Without it all,
I'm choking on nothing,
It's clear in my head,
that I'm screaming for something,
Knowing nothing is better than knowing it all.

On my own (4x)







So these past two months have been horrible. Losing two people that I loved. One being my friend Allen who passed away and 2nd being my ex boyfriend. I never really showed them how much they really did mean to me. I guess I kinda messed up everything between us. I guess that's how life is. You get treated wrong and then you just don't want to live anymore. I just don't know what to do these days. Work is stressing me. And the fact of being "On my own" is horrible. I am tired of being lonely. I am tired of living everyday thinking bad thoughts to harm myself. If there is any way that someone could say some words of encouragement just tell me. I am tired of living everyday, when I actually want to be dead. I am dead on the inside, but on the outside I am slowly dying. Someone just please help me. Please make me happy. Unlike everyone else is doing. I am proud of myself though for losing so much weight. I have lost 30-40 pounds in all.